Happy Endings (Originally posted July 22, 2011)

Happy Endings by Kelly Elizabeth Jarvis.

Once upon a time. Those are words I've heard a lot growing up, and I've been thinking lately. As woman we are taught from a very young age about love. It’s everywhere. We see it in TV shows, magazines, and even children’s movies. So I don’t blame anyone for getting the idea that that’s what the key to happiness is or anything. But I got to thinking about it more and it kind of started driving me a little crazy. We can spend our whole lives looking for “the one” our prince charming or lady in waiting. We can spend all this time running around like our lives are some kind of fairy tale and we won’t get our happy ending without that last kiss from our true love. I think we’ve seem to forgotten something. We’ve already been part of the most epic love story ever. It’s not some boy meets girl falls in love and does anything and everything he can to get this girl. Our story is about a man who was born here for a reason. To save us, He gave his life because He loved you so much. He was tortured and and killed on a cross, all this without ever even meeting you. He did this because he knew what your life was going to be. He knew all the things you were going to do and he loved you no matter what you turned out to be. He never met me, never heard my voice, and I never once said I loved him to his face. But he gladly took my place on that cross. He did it all so that one day I would be able to see him, and I would be able to tell him I love him. He did this so that one day when my life here is over I can have my happy ending.

If that’s not the most beautiful love story ever I don’t know what is.

The end.

-Kelly

Worthy

Worthy by Kelly Elizabeth Jarvis.

This is something I wrote last year while I was working at my old church. I wrote it as part of a project that I had been planning for months. While the reason behind it may have been for other people I feel like when I was sitting down to write it I was speaking to myself in a lot of ways. I know for a fact I was speaking about myself. I've dealt with a lot of things in my life. Good and bad and I am blessed for all of them. This is always a reminder to me of the things God is willing to do for me and it would seem that it reopens my eyes to just how much he loves me every time I read it. I realize now that I wasn't the one writing it at the time, that these words came from God when I needed them and for me to share them to others who may be needing them.

Sometimes I feel like my knees will forever be part of the ground I lay here on. It’s then that you pick me up and hold me tight so I can hear your heartbeat. I see myself as weak in all of their eyes, but you see my strength. I seem cold to them all. But you know it’s my hurt that goes so deep I can’t see the light at the end of the hole I’ve dug myself in. I hold back feelings as to not let them all see. That I’m so broken inside I can’t even see me. But you tell me I have purpose, a reason for this life. My tongue is sore from biting my word, because I can’t seem to use the ones you do to describe me. beautiful, wonderful, and amazing. Caring and strong. These words that you use make me come undone. You speak like I am worth a place on this earth and watch me like I am a gift. You are my God and I am your child and I will forever love you.

-Kelly

Remember John 3:16

As woman I think that ideas are placed in our minds at a very young age. We are show fairytale after fairytale and, told that there is a prince charming out there for us. Some of us spend our whole lives waiting for this grand gesture from someone that proves their love for us. We've grown to need that kind of confirmation in our everyday lives. We are disappointed if this unrealistic expectation never happens. And yet. It has. We seem to have forgotten that we all started out with the biggest grand gesture of them all. Someone has already given up the most important thing in their lives for you. Someone has already died to love you. One put himself on a cross and one sent him to do so. One was spit on, beating, and torn down, and one had to watch in pain. They did this so that one day they could spend forever with you. They may not sparkle in the sunlight or write songs about Their undying love for you. But one created the sunlight and one did died for you.

-Kelly

Grand Gesture

Grand Gesture by Kelly Elizabeth Jarvis.


I would see myself as a very strong independent woman. While I haven't been a woman for very long as I am only 22, however I've always felt like I could take care of myself. I've never grown up thinking about the day I get married, and I'm not sure I will ever get married. It's not something I tend to put great thought into.

However I have noticed that for most girls this is the case. I have friends (Nicole) that have files for their wedding day and they aren't even dating anyone right now. Now I'm not saying that marriage isn't something I haven't thought about. I was engaged when I was seventeen and that's when I realized that this idea of growing up and finding "the one" was getting in the way of what was really happening.
I came around and realized that this was the first person who ever told me they loved me outside of my family, and while we had fun together we weren't made for each other. We were seventeen and we just wanted someone to love us, and we figured that getting married would mean having someone love us, forever.

I've often thought about what would have happened if I never changed my mind. If I hadn't broken it off. If I had never grown up and realized that while being asked to marry someone is kind of magical, and for a moment in your life the only people in the world are you and that person. That in the background, you have a real life, and that this answer changes that real life. They don't tell you about that in those .

As woman I think that ideas are placed in our minds at a very young age. We are show fairytale after fairytale and, told that there is a prince charming out there for us. Some of us spend our whole lives waiting for this grand gesture from someone that proves their love for us. We've grown to need that kind of confirmation in our everyday lives. We are disappointed if this unrealistic expectation never happens. And yet. It has. We seem to have forgotten that we all started out with the biggest grand gesture of them all. Someone has already given up the most important thing in their lives for you. Someone has already died to love you. One put himself on a cross and one sent him to do so. One was spit on, beating, and torn down, and one had to watch in pain. They did this so that one day they could spend forever with you. They may not sparkle in the sunlight or write songs about Their undying love for you. But one created the sunlight and one did died for you.

Remember John 3:16

-Kelly